I wanna stay in the rain

Hearing people say about the never-ending rain in Sandakan.
I'm thinking about the sunless clouded day.
Dark but there is still light.
I would stay in the rain with my raincoat.
Feel the rain dripping in my face while i stare at the sky.
Close my eyes and thinking about everyday.
Yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

Misinterpret

Sometimes people misinterpret our intentions. When we try to help, other people would think we have some other intentions. It goes the other way around too sometimes. We misinterpret other people... lots more I want to write about. But not tonight. Sleepy

Regrets dan Penyesalan of things that I've done

Banyak benda yang aku menyesal buat,
lots of things i wished i hadn't done.
Semua memori terlekat di ingatan ku.
Membuat aku menjadi aku.
Aku yang jahat dan aku yang baik.
Aku hanya mampu meminta maaf.
Tidak ada yang mampu aku lakukan untuk mengubahnya.

Jog and eat?? what?

Tadi pagi ke Tun Fuad pukul 7. For those who don't know what that is: tu tempat jog laa. So pi sana la. Tapi x jog. Jalan slow saja. Penat jugak la. Naik turun bukit. Stop sekejap pi tempat pushup, pull up, & sit up. Buat la sikit2 pastu tengok orang Tai Chi di arahkan oleh kucing hitam putih macam lembu. Seriously.. Pastu jalan lagi. Baru jalan sekali, sudah pi makan mee goreng & fishcake.

Drive ke Museum Negara Kota Kinabalu. Museum under reconstruction so daripada RM2 masuk jadik la RM1. Pusing2 memenatkan diri di taman pastu masuk ke tempat air cond iaitu: Art gallery: my kind of place. Ada pameran dari Sabah art group, V thinggy. X ingat laa. Go ahead and check. From 6 January to 22 January 2011. Pameran seniman2 yang melukis d Abandoned Building depan Suria Sabah.

So pastu drive lagi ke Wan Wan makan Tom Yum. Sedaaaaapp~ Balik rumah, tidur.. Malam bangun pi makan pizza... Atleast ada activiti la. Hahahaha stewpitt ^^

Chinese New Year dekat sudah

Dekat2 Chinese New Year ni lagu CNY saja on di shopping mall & supermarket. Mula-mula tu boleh la abaikan. Tapi x lama: termelekat jugak di kepala. Sampai ternyanyi sekali walaupun x paham. Ternyanyi-nyanyi, andthen tersuke plak. Last-last buat dance sendiri yang macam orang gila. Syok jugak la. Haha :-D

Andthen pikir balik CNY ni, aku ada jugak member cina. Jiran sebelah rumah pun orang cina jugak. Tuan rumah sewa pun orang cina jugak... Ramai pulak cina aa? Patut kah beli gift kasi dorang? Rasanya patut jugak untuk mengeratkan selaturahim konon-konon. Tapi duit xda. Sooo kemungkinan tidak laaa diberi~. Wat to do~

CNY ni banyak baju merah yang berjual. Cita-cita kecilku untuk membeli jacket warna merah pun belum tercapai. Patut beli ka? ... tapi ada sweater yang macam smart aku suka di Centre Point shopping mall... hurm....

Driven

Ntaaaah laa~ hidup
Kadang-kadang orait la~
Kadang-kadang boring
Kadang-kadang sedih
Kadang-kadang marah
Emotions ataupun emosi
emosi yang mengawal diri
emosi yang membuat hidup lebih menarik

Keinginan yang menggerakkan kita untuk maju
keinginan yang tidak pernah putus-putus
setelah satu keinginan dicapai, akan timbul lagi satu keinginan yang lain
keinginan yang tidak dapat dicapai menghilangkan semangat

hari ini aku kebosanan
hari esok tidak tahu pula
Keinginan menggerakkan aku
aku akan bergerak walaupun tidak mahu
mengangkat tangan dan cuba mencapai
keinginan
kegembiraan

Artisity is a hard life

Aku chat dengan MR.Comic d pesbuk. Haha ^^ 1st cakap2 pasal durang punya seni di bangunan terbiar depan Suria Sabah tu. Pastu mana dia kerja blablabla paham2 la.

Pastu masuk topic yang hidup seniman ni susah. Aku cerita yang aku secara terpaksa mengambil Diploma Mechanical in Design and Drawing aku. Dia cakap yang aku ada masa depan. Aku pun tanya la 'seniman teda masa depan ka?' .Dia jawab 'Gni ja la masa depan aku' ..

rasa sedih jugak la sebab dunia ni tidak adil~ ... Does it make me appreciate my work now? .. I guess a little. O_O ... Tapi aku masih lagi minat dengan seni~ walaupun seni aku skang ni agak kurang smart

Tengkiu tu MR.Comic

work to pay the bills

basically: I work for money. I need money for comfortness of life.

I keep going to work, so i don't lose my job

have to keep my job, so I could keep getting paid money

get paid money, so I could pay the bills

pay the bills of life. The bills I pay for the comfort of life.

contoh la: the tV's astro. The electric and water bills. The internet bills. The fuckin house rent.


Anyways I don't have lots of bills to pay. It's not much when you share the bills with friends (tho he pays for lots more). Share the things in life. But not everything laa~

Life is hard and painful. But the human instinct still sets us to strive to live, even if it does sux at times.

Poetry: from the sadness

at times..

i wish you all would understand

i would want all your joy gone away just like mine

want you to feel and suffer just as i am

to be alone, crying and screaming

but can't do anything

try and bare

lying awake in bed with pain in the centre of your body

wishing you'd cut open your chest, bleed, and die.

Just like trying to reach for the sun

Clubs and alcohol and people

Well I blogged before about clubs and alcohol and people before.

Well I totally went in the scene with a friend and watch the people there unintendedly.

The experience? I don't feel nothing. Maybe because I did nothing. So what people said about: someone that never clubbed before could go crazy clubbing: I think yeah, maybe... I never really clubbed before and I didn't go crazy. Didn't even really liked it. Didn't really met people that I want to meet. There were no sexual attraction as people say u would get.

A little relief and a disappointing.

Well about them being ugly personality. I still don't know. Some I think yes because we can find ugly personified people everywhere. I find it kinda disgusting to watch them. But I wanna keep an open mind.